A little life update: I lost my job. I have officially joined the ranks of the unemployed!
On Friday I got made redundant, my boss lost funding for my job as a Marketing Executive as the client we were working for ended the contract. Essentially, there was nothing I could have done to change the outcome.
Honestly, I wasn’t sure whether to post about it on here. But this is real life and I like to document everything, to share with others and look back on in years to come.
So here is what I have figured out (and am still figuring out) since I got made redundant:
1. You may not see it coming.
I certainly didn’t. It was a totally random call at 4pm on a Friday from my boss. I was not prepared and maybe in future I will be more aware of my expendability. As secure as jobs may seem, at the end of the day you are almost always expendable. Things change, as do priorities, and sometimes you can get caught in the cross fire.
2. It’s OK not to feel OK.
One of my biggest mantras: it’s OK to not be OK all of the time. In fact, it’s normal. It’s also A-OK to have waves of not-OK-ness. I felt fine over the weekend, disappointed but pretty optimistic. On Monday I spoke to my Grandparents over the phone about it and found myself getting really emotional afterwards- out of nowhere. Things in life can change suddenly, the vision you had of what your life will be tomorrow, next week, next month or next year can change- and that change can be hard to deal with. Sometimes the best thing you can do is let the emotions flow because suppressing them is never a good idea.
3. You will be OK.
I didn’t want to hear this the other day, in fact when somebody told me ‘you’ll be fine’ I wanted to Melissa McCarthy throat punch them quite frankly. Sometimes you don’t want to hear that, you want to feel crap and wallow (or at least I did)… but don’t do it for too long, life’s too short. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and have faith that you deserve better than to feel pants about losing your job and that something better is round the corner.
Friday I let myself be upset. Saturday and Sunday I enjoyed life with the knowledge that these hurdles will only make me stronger, more resilient. Monday I had a wobbly and let myself feel pants for a bit. Tuesday was retail therapy, vegan pizza and business as usual.
If you’re going through a challenging season in life, remember: when it rains, look for rainbows.